As it is, I'm a very shot-tempered person who, admittedly may act upon her anger by violently unleashing it. I remembered a time where my temperament caused me to throw a mirror wildly, thankfully, no one was in sight. I recalled little acts of violence which I lashed out on different people, embarrassed and guilty, I would not go into details.

Recently, abuse on parents has been brought to light with more parents admit that their child needs help. It makes me wonder whether these children would remember it for life. I understand anger, the need to explode once in awhile with the irritant of parents. The nagging and the occasional beating can cause the slow build up to unleash.

I find myself finding different ways to unleash it, whether to grab hold on something tightly, or even to feel a little pain. It all works. I wonder what they teach in anger management classes, how to rein in the temper before it explodes disasterly. Probably breathing exercises I suppose.

As a youth growing up in the 21st century, I must say that technology of any kind are the greatest invention on this Earth. We all know everything is a two way street, but recent events have made me realise that the creation of internet, camera hand phones and of course, the television is a great way to open up to secret disputes and make the world more aware.

I always believe in the freedom of speech, of human rights and preservation. In my humble opinion, I feel that technology can show the world 'wrong doings' of any kind, and allow one to speak out and reach the world. Sure it may cause disputes (the tragic death of the Iranian girl is one such example), but it allows us to understand what is happening around us.

I am, however, not blind of the consequences of technology, especially with pornography at such easy access. Nevertheless, technology has opened a whole new world of communication and has made people open their eyes. Thus, I feel it will be suffocating if one is ever to ban/control the internet or technology in general.

Imagine the boredom without facebook, youtube videos or even blogs. I shudder to think the day I'm unable to fangirl over my favourite idols.

These days, my reactions are rather slow. I don't seem to be on my game anymore and am not able to dare myself to speak out.

I need to re-create myself, hoping I'll be back to the alert self.

I have started twitting:

twitter.com/privatehaven

I just realised how Facebook take up so much of my time, thus I decided to abstain it for a week. Let's see what I can do with those wasted hours.

I just realised I really like Aston's Ice Lemon Tea, its one of the best fresh lemon tea I had so far.

Dining in NYNY produced fun stories of the daily lives of the Equalities. Oh, and hilarious moments too.
I think I'll remember one sentence for life, though I don't think I should put it down just in case I get murdered.

Remember, when gossiping, always look around you. You'll never know who turns up next.

My dad is finally (finally!!) going to start eating meat again after six years of abstain. Honestly, I think he does miss eating meat, just that his discipline is much more than I. Although I do respect him for it, I do feel the need for him to eat more meat, his too skinny for his own good.

Celebrated Charmaine's and Shobana's birthday by playing board games today. I saw the Scrabble box while choosing the games and I suddenly felt a pang of longing to play the game. Hopefully, my vocabulary has improved since my seven year old self and am able to compete against my mum. Time to dig out the scrabble board.

Ya know, I think the reason why teenagers think they are immortal is because their parents treat them like they are.

Oh my, I'm getting sex advertising ads in my e-mail inbox.

Looking at Esther's blog has made me hungry, but a blog post before I leave for my lunch.

I think I have developed a fear for technology. There are no peaceful days with it, where you're connectable anywhere and I feel as though I'm constantly pursued without any breaks. It has become so bad that my heart lurch whenever my hand phone vibrates and I feel as though it doesn't give me a peaceful sleep. Sure, its useful, like all technologies are, but again like all things there is always a setback.

Occasionally, I feel like having this break whereby I off my hand phone and my laptop and see what goes on. Honestly folks, we are too dependable on these gadgets to entertain and reach us that sometimes it scares my socks off.

'Technology is a two way street' - now I totally get it.